What becomes of these locks once an unbreakable love is shattered? Does the jilted lover return, key in hand or combination recalled, to remove the token in a symbolic act of catharsis or maybe retribution? Do they let the talisman stay as a gesture of goodwill and remembrance of better days gone by? Or perhaps…
Lara’s Eulogy
What do I say about this woman when my feelings for her are ineffable? Jessica suggested I say she had straight teeth. Because “she’d like that”… Jess is right. She had beautiful teeth. Everything about her was beautiful. But still. A eulogy? I’m not good at speeches. I’m too soft-spoken to be a wonderful orator.…
Be Prepared to Die
A year ago Lara rang the bell signaling that her treatment for breast cancer was complete. She was eager to finish that chapter and begin a new one, rebounding back into health and adventure. Gage was eagerly counting down the days until she returned to Georgia with us. We all were. My countdown was shorter…
The Mountain Before Me
I’ve spent the previous 24-ish hours in mostly silent reflection on this past year. I’m not exactly searching for answers. I’m not really one to ask, “Why me?” except perhaps in jest. Because why anybody? The world simply turns day after day and things just happen sometimes. Nevertheless, I dug deep. Looking for a way…
Ganesha Chakra Meditation
I walked out to the pond yesterday for some time to myself. I’d chosen a random meditation from my app to help me level-set the cacophony I was hearing in my head. When I got to the pond I walked to the end of the diving board and sat down. I didn’t feel like meditating.…
My Wedding Vows
What follows are the wedding vows I wrote and read to Lara at our second ceremony in Healdsburg, California on October 27, 2022. We’d planned to do one on October 26th, but her pain got the best of her. I woke up and had this note on my nightstand as well as a text from…